I am just amazed at how much you can love a person. She's soon to be a big sister, she is stunning and everything she does, even then she throws a fit... she's irresistable.
Kehnley's top Favorite things... the "best ever" as she calls them...
best ever movie- Tinker Bell
best ever friend- Mommy and sometimes daddy when she's not see him much like this week because he's been working so hard!
best ever pressent - the Carebear Sharebear workout talking bear Lyndz just gave her and her caboodle full of lipsticks
best ever time - morning time when the "suns gets up"
best ever play- stopping at the play ground on our walks and me watching from she side until she needs to slide down the pole (no really im not allowed on the wood chips unless needed for this important task)
best ever food - hotdogs and mac-e-cheeseeee with ketch up of course. Daddy just introduced corndogs and it's a whole new world of mistery meat shapped like a finger
best ever drink - spicy drink AKA 3 parts water + 1 part juice + 1 part sprite zero.... thanks Jen for introducing sprite zero lol, but it's only on REALLY special occasions. other wise best ever drink - milk
best ever church - when we pull into the parking lot she gets so excited and screams "this CHURCH!" she loves to "play with friends" at church and "help God"
best ever bed - her new bed is a fav. place for napping, jumping, spinning and falling, sleeping at night, reading stories, and tucking in Pinky ( she named Excersizing Sharebear)
best ever dog - Lilly, she hugs and gives kisses.. and them chases and kicks sometimes too... it's a love/hate relationship
best ever dance - when we turn on music or have family night and dance around the house and stand on the "stage" which is where ever she is standing or on the couch(she's recently added the robot to her mad dance skills)
best ever show - newest favortites are Charlie and Lola, and Imagination Movers
best ever shirt - the Hello Kitty shirt her Fancy recently bought her, she would wear it everyday if she could
best ever moment - when she gives me a big hug and calls me her "Beeest friend"
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
"This is what the LORD says-- your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: "I am the LORD your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go." Isaiah 48:17"
"You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you." Isaiah 26:3
"LORD, you have brought light to my life; my God, you light up my darkness." Psalm 18:28
"Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5
"I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." Psalm 91:2
"The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him," Nahum 1:7
Same for Bry, I was reminded this weekend JUST how funny and smart and amazing he is. We laughed so much I thought I was going to have contractions! It's an odd thing that happens to a couple day after day if your not careful, you start to just see the person but not really LOOK at them, talk to them but not really ENGAGE in conversation, hug them but not EMBRACE the moments...and I am talking about the two of us who really DO love being together, talk all the time about everything, cuddle and "keep the romance candle burning" --as my dad once said, but that's a different and very funny story and I know totally hilarious coming from our dad... but anyway... point is, we WORK at our marriage, but it doesn't feel like work, and even couples that "work" at it need a weekend to get away from distractions and remember just how precious time together really is. I totally take him for granted. I take his smile for granted, his sense of humor, his patience...
We stayed at the Woodlands Spa and honestly, we did NOTHING but sleep, eat, watch movies, get into funny situations, workout, eat some more, sleep some more, couples massages, shop, and just enjoy each other's company. We went to the museum, my fav. restaurants, I learned so much about Bry's job and about his hopes for the future, we talked about some of our fav. moments over the past 4 years of marriage...listen to songs we danced to in high school. One of the really funny things that happened lol was we had been given choc. covered strawberries and sparkling cider from the hotel the night we arrived and they forgot to give us a bottle opener, so Bry tried to use the side of the table, made a chip, then tried the pocket knife... no luck, tried it again on the table in a diff spot ( not sure why) cracked the table there... then when we finally got the bottle open he picked up the glass to pour some and somehow BROKE the stem off the glass... we were just standing there staring at the bubble fizzing in the glass with no stem... Bry shrugged and took a sip... I think we laughed for like 20 min after, I cant help but crack up now when I recall the look on his face.... it was like a gaping jaw and bug eyes lol. He was like "don't let me touch anything else tonight" Then I raided the lounge and found their stash of party mix nuts.... snuck it into the room along with two apples, two granola bars, and two bags of chips... JUST as the worker guy was coming off the elevator set up our movie... I had to sprint with all my goodies tucked somewhere between my chin and belly and do a 360 turn to keep him from seeing... kind of hilarious for a 9 month preggers girl to be running in her pjs with snack packs and qb sneak moves to get into the room...
Bry-- "where did you FIND all that!"
Keri-- "in the lounge, hush and help me hide this stuff"
I still dont think it was stealing bc it was just sitting there! Yeah I DID hide it from worker guy, but either way, we had some snacks for our late night movie marathon!
We are back at home and I am probably keeping Bry from good sleep with the "tap tap" of they keyboard, but I just wanted to record some of the weekend before it was forgotten... it's so great to have these memories to look back on and help me remember what a true treasure our marriage is. I know ppl all over the world now and for centuries have and do celebrate their marriages, but I can't help but feel what we have is special and blessed. I feel God's favor over us. Off to bed now, need to be ready to wake with joy with the first little glint of sun when Kehnley thinks the whole world is needing to be up too! :) I have to admit the past couple days I have DREADED that sunrise for lack of a better reason other than exhaustion and the endless list of "to do's" but I am actually looking forward to this one... God has given me a renewed spirit of purpose and pleasure in the day to day with those I love and have taken for granted in weeks past. I also can't wait to appreciate the love of my life tomorrow too...12 years, wow...I still feel like I'm 15 sometimes when I am with him
"But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. "
Here is the old room....
Here is the new room....
She really loves it and we made it like a HUGE deal, telling everyone having her show everyone, really praising her for getting to have this big bed.
Time comes to try it out, we get bath, pick out a few books and the ritual begins, we read two books, sang a few songs, prayed together and got all her babies tucked in... she seamed okay and I told her daddy and I were going to sleep too after daddy got out of the shower. So I leave and daddy had turned on a night light (placing it behind her doll house which REALLY freaked me out lol, but Kehnley didn't seam to mind...)
A few sec go by and she comes walking out of the room "good morning mom"
well, it wasn't morning I tell her and walk her back to bed. The next time I leave the room and go to find Bry looking at her on the video monitor... we see her push back the covers, slide down the back of the bed and her little head bobbing as she is walking to the door... lol we cant stop laughing! I quickly run and do the "Risky Business" slide to meet her in the hallway "what are you doing out of bed I say" she replies "hey mom", and then turns around and gets back in bed. Two more times we watch as she gets out of bed, head bobs to the door but then she turns and goes to get back in bed before coming out. The breaking point was when she turns to her stuffed animals sharing the covers with her and says in a cracking almost cry voice "mom will be here in a minute" Bry couldn't take it, he goes to lay down with her for a bit. After a little while I went and got him and she cried for a bit but stayed in bed. It's now night three and she has slept every night in her bed.... of course as soon as 7:30 hits and the "sun is awake" she runs into our room to let us know its morning :)
It's turning out better than I thought... but man those mornings are coming early :) We are back to locking ourselves in our bedroom after putting baby girl to sleep to give her the impression that all the world is sleeping when she is.
We have moved Kehnley into a big girl bed and her room is still under construction...painting to be done, new routines to be made... and door knobs to be changes! We have those kinds with longer handles that she can open and shut on her own, but they aren't on yet so we are just leaving the door cracked for now, yet to see how the morning workout will work with this new bedroom set up :). Sadie's room is full of furniture to move and the garage has furniture to be stained and put together. Tomorrow we go to get a new baby bed.... so when I say "Under Construction"... there is SO much to DO that's all I keep thinking, not to mention bags for the hospital to pack, some custom art for the girls rooms to do, and a few last minute things to sew and get done for Sadie's bedding and curtains and all that.
BUT, in the midst of all this "to do-ing" and the things that wake me at 3 am... God keeps reminding me that all this is so trivial and unimportant in the long run, as I spent a few hours in the ER with Bryson on Thursday because he had crazy high blood pressure, fever, and growing pain in his side. We have yet to get a true diagnosis, but we are going to some other docs tomorrow I hope. This is NOT at all of equal importance and Bry is going to find it crazy that I mention it in the same category but even the DOG has to go to the vet bc she jumped out of the car and hurt her leg... like I said, NOT equal importance, but she is still limping around and throwing up or "blahhhh-ing" as Kehnley says, but I don't think we have enough money in the account to cover what the vet would want to even treat her.... I'm kind of at a loss of what to do about that.
So, while all these things big and small are on my long list of what to do in the next month, some needing more attention than others God gave me with scripture:
"Look straight ahead and fix your eyes on what lies before you. Mark out a straight path for your feet; then stick to the path and stay safe. Don't get side tracked, keep your feet from evil."
One of the greatest evils I could fall to in this time that I know so many struggle with especially in times of chaos or a lot of things going on, planning to do, life change... is the temptation to think that it can all be done alone, that it's more important than growing with the Lord, or that it's something that you share your attention and affection for the Lord with. I don't want a divided heart, I don't want to worship created things instead of the creator... I don't want to fill my heart and mind with worldly things and wonder why I am so frazzled. I think of Shirley, the woman who stands on the corner of a major freeway in our city who is homeless, she has a nervous pacing and who is cold tonight with no bed, no food, and no family to my knowledge and I think of the things that I spend my time worrying about, how silly are they compared to her needs? I want to remember that. My heart is under construction and I am praying God clear out all distractions to make room for only one thing... Himself.
This post is kind of all over the place, but I guess that's where I am right now. In short I realized this weekend the things that really do matter to me most, are not getting my full attention, and I am grateful that God opened my eyes to that. Time to change.