I've got an angel, she doesn't wear any wings.
She wears a heart that can melt my own, she wears a smile that can make me want to sing
She gives me presents, with her presence alone.
She gives me everything I could wish for, she gives me kisses on the lips just for coming home.
She can make angels, I've seen it with my own eyes.
You gotta be careful when you've got good love, because the angels will just keep on multiplying.
You're so busy changing the world, just one smile can change all of mine.
We share the same soul, oh oh oh oh.
We share the same soul.
Angle by Jack Johnson

This is an apology to my little angel, this past week I had a feeling most moms feel at some pint I am sure...like I needed time to just NOT be a mom. It's hard to not feel a little lost when you are given this title all day everyday. It would be like living at your job 24/7 around the clock and at some point you loose the joy meant to be experienced in what you do. I was talking with a friend and actually heard these words come out of my mouth "sometimes I just want to be just me and not a mom". How could I say that when there are not-yet-but-dieing-to-be-mother's out there in the world... my daughter is a gift and how quickly we take those gifts for granted when some days get hard. Forgive me darling, I know what gift you are and I cherish you. There are days when I will look back at these precious times and wish I had you with me all the time again. I don't want to miss a moment. What if God stopped being our savior for just a day because I am sure there are days that I could exacerbate His grace... (Bryson pointed that out to me lovingly). I am glad He doesn't get tired of His "job".
"So don't get tired of doing what is good. Don't get discouraged and give up, for we will reap a harvest of blessing at the appropriate time." Galations 6:9



This past week we went to Port A with the Blowey fam. it was a really relaxing and a great weekend, I was able to run on the beach, laugh and play with Bry and Kehnley, sleep like no other, and enjoy some really intimate time with the Lord. As most times go when you are digging deep in the scriptures and feeling God's presence there is a nagging pull on the heart of every believer depending on the time of life, that is called "distraction". Satan uses it often and in many forms. For me that week it was doubt in the form of making the right decisions about our future. I was running on the beach with Bry when a nagging feeling started to settle in as I thought about the Amex bill I had yet to pay... did I make the right choice to not go back to work, to stay home, to have another baby, to pursue my own design company full time.... I just couldn't shake it and as much as I tried to talk my self into, down and around the choice God so clearly had laid out for us, I knew what I had to do! Go to the word. What I was greeted with was more than comforting, it was convicting. How could I doubt God's presence in my life?

(Let me interject by saying that I KNOW this life is nothing but a flash: unimportant in so many ways, full of useless things meant to keep us entertained for only a short time until we will be united with our Love, Jesus Christ forever... and live in that Holy Kingdom with Him. Our time here in only meant to love God and love others and HOPE to show other's that love of Christ that they may be free from their burdens and know the greatness that is the Lord, having the joy that we are so freely given as children and heirs to God. I constantly struggle with realizing that, yet needing to be living in the world and doing what I am to do day in and day out- making even the mundane hallowed and making the most of every opportunity... I think about it more than I can even express but on some sunny days when the wind is blowing strong and I am listening to my ipod trying to push past another mile, my mind begins to wander and I am glad God meets me there)

Here is what he said to me.

Stop constantly asking God for direction! If He's living in you, He's with you, and He's already guiding you without you needing to ask...Stay in tune with His direction.

"This is what the Lord says- Your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: 'I am the Lord your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.' "
Isaiah 48:17

"By day the Lord directs His love, at night his song is with me- a prayer to the God of my life." Psalm 42:8

"May the Lord direct your hearts into God's love and Christ's perseverance." 2 Thes. 3:5

"I know, O Lord, that a man's life is not his own; it's not for me to direct his steps." Jeremiah 10:23

"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." Proverbs 16:9

"Direct my footsteps according to your word, let no sin rule over me." Psalm 119:133

"Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example that you should follow in His steps."
1 Pt. 2:21

I share this with everyone only because one day I will need to be remind, I am sure MANY days I will need to be reminded, and also maybe....just maybe... there is someone out there who needs to know this Truth too.


Bedtime Business!

I just had to post the funniest thing, this week Kehnely has been taking a different item each day during nap time to bed with her...

Monday: the Nemo fish she and Ans won in Kemah

Tuesday: the HUGE ABC book that ended up across her face mid nap

Wednesday: Tigger, Hop, Ruby, Nemo, and Tyrone (all stuffed animals) went to bed

Thursday: A bag of Starburst we bought for Fancy and sippy cup
Friday? Her Strawberry Lipsmakers I bought her to keep her from taking my lipstick....she put it in her pants and wore it around then would whip out the stick and apply five times, her lips were shinny as she slept with it in her hand.
I was hoping to get pics but too afraid to wake the little sleeping beauty... nap times are pretty precious commodities around here. Wouldn't want to cut them short! In other news here is the growing belly.

10 Weeks

Trip to Kemah pics coming soon. Ciao, I am off to my 11 week check up!


My Favorite things...

This video helped SO much learning how to LISTEN to certain cries and what they mean, and this book was amazing at helping me understand sleep cycles and how to make a routine for sleeping.

Soothies: The only pacifier Kehnley would take and I bought EVERY kind!

I never leave home without my cart cover.... but mine dosen't look like this one, it's really cute though!

The dream machine for making homemade baby food! (Williams-Sanoma)

So cute Apron for baby from Anthro

I have to sneak veggies into my baby girls diet anywhere I can!! These are great for traveling

She loves the tart Cherry flavor! But lets be real... this pancake mix saves my life because one of the only things she will eat for breakfast is homemade blueberry pancakes

I love the smell and it really does sooth and drift us BOTH off to sleep, the lotion especially!

Kehnley's fav. book, all of the Karen Katz books she loves!

Her birthday banner made by Whooo Do You Love, coming soon to an Etsy near you!

This book is not only awesome for doodles and creative drawing for my little artist, it's great for fun activities for older kids to have a different one printed out and in your bag for those long waits at a restaurant!

Kehnley loves her gingham chair I got the only black and white one left from Pottery Barn and it doubles as a timeout chair...but she still loves it!

For cold nights and days these are the cutest accessory!!

I can't get enough of these adorably big bowed and flowered beanies! I like making them for friends as shower gifts!!