I've got an angel, she doesn't wear any wings.
She wears a heart that can melt my own, she wears a smile that can make me want to sing
She gives me presents, with her presence alone.
She gives me everything I could wish for, she gives me kisses on the lips just for coming home.
She can make angels, I've seen it with my own eyes.
You gotta be careful when you've got good love, because the angels will just keep on multiplying.
You're so busy changing the world, just one smile can change all of mine.
We share the same soul, oh oh oh oh.
We share the same soul.
Angle by Jack Johnson

This is an apology to my little angel, this past week I had a feeling most moms feel at some pint I am sure...like I needed time to just NOT be a mom. It's hard to not feel a little lost when you are given this title all day everyday. It would be like living at your job 24/7 around the clock and at some point you loose the joy meant to be experienced in what you do. I was talking with a friend and actually heard these words come out of my mouth "sometimes I just want to be just me and not a mom". How could I say that when there are not-yet-but-dieing-to-be-mother's out there in the world... my daughter is a gift and how quickly we take those gifts for granted when some days get hard. Forgive me darling, I know what gift you are and I cherish you. There are days when I will look back at these precious times and wish I had you with me all the time again. I don't want to miss a moment. What if God stopped being our savior for just a day because I am sure there are days that I could exacerbate His grace... (Bryson pointed that out to me lovingly). I am glad He doesn't get tired of His "job".
"So don't get tired of doing what is good. Don't get discouraged and give up, for we will reap a harvest of blessing at the appropriate time." Galations 6:9

1 comment:

Jennifer-Colley said...

thanks for sharing your heart! you are a fabulous mom and Kehnley is soo lucky to have you...so is baby #2!