Sadie's 2 and 3 and coming on 4!



Sadie Grade, your three months and it's hard to believe that you are already 100 days old! :) You are such a joy, and I know that all moms probably say this but really you are one of the happiest babies I have ever seen! The only time you get sad is when your teeth hurt and yes, you are already trying to get teeth! It's wild how fast you are growing you weigh over 12 lbs and you are in your 3 month clothes but like sissy you are WAY too long for your onsie footies lol your like in a body suit wedgie in those things! Mommy is just going to have to put you in bigger ones because they make you look like a little baby doll and not as big as you are...


Putting your hands together, its your new trick and you are getting REALLY good at it!
Chewing on anything, your hand, teether, blanket, passie, shirt, my fingers
Story time with daddy, and who can blame you, he tells great stories!
Picking up stuff with your toes, you have this amazing strength in your feet you can grab anything with them and lift it up, discovered on a walk when you picked up a rattle with them haha! it was so funny, me and Kehnley laughed forever about that!

You even were able to kick the Karaoke machine you and Sissy love playing with and get it going, those toes have some power!

You love to talk to me when you should be eating, you love to talk period! You talk all the time! Not any real words yet of course but you know what your saying don't you?

You love you smile and I mean LOVE it! You smile and laugh all the time, its kind of our mission in life, everyone at home, to get you to laugh as much as possible!

You LOVE your passie, did I say that already? I think you have 6 in your diaper bag at all times!

You like it still, not quiet because that would be impossible in our house and with our lives, but you like to be still. I can just hold you for ever and not move a bit and you are totally content.

If we want to hear you squeal with delight we will let you stand up, I have a feeling that even at 3 months you will be just like Kiki and walking in no time at all!

You eat SUPER fast, like the fastest eater second to daddy that I have ever seen
You look great in pink and yellow (a color mommy can't pull off) must be the Fancy in you
You love to snuggle your head under my chin, it's pure bliss for me

Today you laughed so hard you started to choke because Kehnley was popping bubbles in front of you...

Thank you for letting mommy get 5 hrs of consecutive sleep some nights, its a luxury I wasn't expecting. You are amazing!
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God has taught me to slow down, relish the moments, take everyday for what it is and truly rely on Him for the next 24 hrs. All we need is in Him and I pray for you to know the source of joy that is welling up in your heart and I know you will spill that out on all who meet you. Since the day you were born your heart has been so soft! Every time you hear a cry, which sister has done more since you came along :) your face get low and your lip hangs and those tears start to flow... I know you will probably have mommy's ability to cry at the most sappy sentimental moment but you can laugh just as easily, and we love BOTH about you! You are such a precious jewel to us. We love you!



Is she a good baby?


Thanks so Kandace and Josh and their new baby girl, I write this post, I hope its okay that I am using them as my inspiration for something I feel now and probably always will. This is for new moms, old moms, moms to be... its tough being a mom. You want to make sure that you are doing a good job and for me and my personality that means perfection, but sometimes that can be the driving force to all that discourages you. One thing i always heard those first months but never really understood until i had two was that "all babies are unique and different" even when it comes to the science that is sleep. (and believe me, its science alright!) I see now having two girls who are from the same parents and under the same roof, who even at times favor each other so much I call them by each others names... ALL babies are different!

As a new mom I was always asked these two questions and in order "Is she a good baby?" "Is she a good sleeper?" Lets face it, they were asking them together because its habit AND its expected that a good baby MUST be a good sleeper. As a sleep deprived parent u can understand the obsession with the sleeping questions. Not to mention the "baby industry" has made a small fortune on this science in books, most of which I have bought and read, teaching us moms just HOW to get these babies to sleep.

So you may have a "good baby/good sleeper" but for me... I just had an amazing baby who didn't sleep through the night til after she was one. Did you have a schedule? YES Did you feed her enough during the day? YES Was she being stimulated enough throughout the day? YES The other questions that weren't asked and I never knew about til AFTER she was much older was: Did she develop quickly? YES and Did she have all her teeth by 12 months including molars? YES Were you and your husband good sleepers as babies? NO Because to tell you the truth once you DO get your baby on a good sleep schedule and master the science like a true MD then things happen like: growth spurts, solid foods, a move, a vacation, teething, a dog next door that wont stop barking, rain storms and illness...

Guess what? Kehnley is almost 3, she sleeps in her own bed,even a big girl bed, no cage bars or side rails, no locks on the doors and no Benedryl at night and she LOVES her bed, she loves to sleep in it and she sleeps really well. Nothing I did really crated this love of her bed or of sleep except to make sure that she loved her room and knew she was safe in her own space. And prayer, LOTS of prayer :)

I did read all the books, but the one i have come to love is The Contented Baby because it gives clear explanation and guidance as to what to do from day one to create cues for sleep.. like Sadie goes in her bed the same time every night, for the most part I mean I DO have an active almost 3 yr old, and she sleeps really well... i put her in slightly sleepy awake and put the passie in and pat her back, now passies are off limits to the author but guess what BABIES Love to suck and so she gets a passie, and guess what my baby is getting teeth and has been since 2 months SO she really needs the passie and some nights she doesn't do too good, but it's bc her mouth hurts and i just go in and pat her back and sooth her best i can and we go day by day not stressing about the small stuff. The thing is this, we get so caught up comparing ourselves to other moms and babies and it makes us fee like failures, and that's not what God wants... especially the first few months, your baby is new to the world, them have only known a water dark belly for 9 months and now they have all this new stuff to take in, they WANTS to be close to you, they know nothing but what you show them and teach them its going to be a learning experience the rest of their lives for them AND for you... there are certainly bigger problems that just sleep, but I hope that none of you have to deal with them!

If ever I need rest God gives me a noon-day nap or he increases my energy and looking back i was VERY tired with kehnley that first year, but we moved to a new home when she was 3 months then moved again 9 months later, she had all her teeth was eating by 4 1/2 months of cereal, she was walking holding stuff by 7 months fully on her own by the start of 9 and she was a baby, like mom and dad, who thought sleeping was for the birds :) I do have to say... I wish now she would let me hold her for hours and rock her like I did all those restless nights when I wished she was asleep in her bed. I wouldn't trade those moments for the world, and God used them to slow me down and help me trust in Him.

Sadie is a great sleeper, a good baby... she has a hard time eating bc she eats fast and her teeth hurt and she just wants to chew and not eat... all I can do as a mom is try my best to meet her needs and not get caught up in numbers and statistics and worry myself everyday that my baby isn't preforming like someone elses child, even if it's in a textbook. So to all you moms out there, read the books, ask questions, but at the end of the day, or night, remember that God made your baby uniquely for you and YOU are the best judge of what they need... you never know what tomorrow will hold and if you have to stay up a few more hours than you would like or you haven't showered in 2 days, you got bills your not sure how they will get paid or you just need a moment of quiet remember this:

"And my God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19

Praying for you today!
And pray for this new family as they learn and love each other too!



Pet Shop Friends

I caught this video of Kehnley, she LOVES Pet shop, and she ALWAYS pretends its someones birthday. I laugh hearing her sweet voice!


All in a day

I dont typically do a play by play of my day... but I feel for personal therapy I need to write this down so that one day when the kids are grown and gone I might look back and be okay with the empty nest....

6:50 pitter patter
sweety you need to get in mommys bed its too early to be up, we need our rest
7 15 kehnley stop talking to frenchy and close your eyes your gonna be so tired and wont be able to play today if you dont get some sleep
7 30 Sadies crying
its okay sweety, passie in the mouth
back to my bed
mommy will you make me a smoothie
7 40 banana, ice, orange juice, strawberry yogurt, strawberries, soy milk
i have t go get sadie up before I turn in on baby girl, let me go do that
good morning sunshine time to stretch your arms and legs, lets get some breakfast!
change diaper, sings songs rise and shine and give God the glory glory rise and shine and give God the glory...clap your hands "ditto", stomp your feet "ditto", feed sadie
turn on curious george
start the blender
drink a smoothie
8 50 put sadie in her swing and make myself some toast with almond butter bc the baby cant have peanuts and i LOVE peanut butter!! but almond butter is actually good, I let go of the dream of eating peanut butter, hide the jar i just bought for brys lunches and try and forget its in the pantry
i need to workout!
9 30 turn on jillian and kick it
(little do I know I will crave chocolate which i dont even really like by the end of the night and totally give in!) luckily im working out now!
10 00 watch up with kehnley, play with cars and then Fancy comes over
11 00 im tired mommy i need a nap
Kehnley you need to eat lunch first, Fancy comes over to see the girls, makes Kehnley her lunch, i feed sadie, we finish up and then its time for a nap
night night Kehnley, i lay down for a sec beside her, Fancy comes and relieves me
12 00 girls asleep, Fancy put sadie down and is laying with kehnley, I run to the store
1 00 back home, unload a few bags and visit with mom for a bit
2 00 nurse sadie, thinking i might get a little sleep since Kehnley is still asleep, i close my eyes and... FAAANNNCCCCYYYYY where is Fancy? sweety she went home to take care of things at her house, mommy is here, it's okay
2 30 kehnley is up, sadie is up... 30 min was a tease of a nap
300 time to clean out saide's drawers i empty all the old clothes that are so small i am amazed she fit into them weeks ago kehnley wants to wear her fancy nancy dress with the butterfly wings, she gets upset that the wings arent standing up straight enough, i take then off, she wants them back on, then gets upset again, i take then back off, the baby is sleeping again in her crib by now, kehnley wants to read a book to dragon, of course in the room where sadie is sleeping and i am quietly going through her drawers, she whispers "peter rabbit ran through the gate, got some carrots..." I finish the task, kehnley is now helping me sort sleep shirts into too small or too hot, i cant find a container to put the too small clothes in! climb the ladder, mom be careful dont hurt u self, ill come up, sweety you cant come up into the attic, its hot and yuck up here and youll get hurt, step off the step please, i look and look for a container, baby is crying
4 00 start cooking for dinner and make a few more pizzas to freeze for later, kehnley is pouring the sauce in her fancy dress Sadie is laying on her play mat in the kitchen and loving the cow right now lilly wants more water
5 00 the kichen looks like an italian mama has just walked in and got into a fight with the tomato sauce, im wearing half of it, still in my workout clothes
5 30 i need to address some envelopes for bry, go to kehnley's room, mom play with my house with me, sadies on a boppy next to kehnley and we play house for a few minutes, mom needs to write on these really fast for daddy, i start addressing, mom your in my spot i need to be standing at my kitchen, kehnley you just told me to move over here that you needed to be at your house, so i moved over here, mom i need to be at my kitchen i have to cook my smoothie, i move over, sadie is putting her hands together, her new trick so cute, i stop writing and marvel at her for a bit, holding hands making dolphin noises and kehnley makes us an air smoothie we drink up- all of us
half the addresses are done, on my goodness I just realized what time it is, baths girls, lets go
oh i need to get the food in the oven! run to the kitchen leave the girls in Kehnley's room and get all the enchiladas stuffed and sauced and in the oven, dont worry about the kitchen you can clean it later, dont look at the den either youll pick up those toys after the girls go to bed
girls are fussing, Kehnley is calling my name, sadie is sleepy but i have to get her in the tub i get the water started, get kehnley undressed, no momma i have a poopy, i lay both girls on the floor on a changing mat together and take off saides clothes for the bath and change kehnleys pants and THEN its to the bath
kehnley in first
sadie in her seet next
i bathe kehnley i bathe sadie
sadie gets out and in a towel we read stories while kehnley plays
daddy's home! he sweety how are you? want me to take sadie, he gives me a kiss
I need to check on supper
he takes sadie, sits with Kehnley
sadies SO sleepy but its not time for her to go to bed yet i need to feed her
it's only 650
7 00 get kehnley dressed for bed
making kehnley's plate, she is eating salad now I am so happy! make sure none of the food touches and get some fruit with a little whip for after dinner ready so she wont ask for a Popsicle again
7 30 i nurse sadie, bry makes his plate sadie cant keep eating bc shes too busy smiling at me, so sweet
7 45 i get to make my plate to eat and then its time for me to pick up kehnleys plate and clean the kitchen, sadies going to sleep her teeth hurt, we try everything- orajel to the rescue, she's finally able to calm down
8 00 sitting on the couch watching wubbzy one more episode with Kehnley and daddy
8 15 off to bed little girl we run to her room and i "fly" her into bed, night night, kiss kiss
Bry puts her to sleep with a book and I crack the door
sadies crying, passie back in the mouth, pat on the back, gotta go brush my teeth
8 20 out the door to run some food by a friends house, seriously dont look at the kitchen you can clean it when you get home, listen to something in the car that puts some comfort in my heart, thank you seeds of praise, i needed that!
9 00 back home brys asleep in kehnleys room, pat pat, he wakes up, walks squinting into the light of the living room, starts bible study
i clean the kitchen finally but resolve to do dishes tomorrow it will wake the girls
9 30 sitting on the couch try to think what i have done all week that i havent once sat down and watched a movie or something in forever, read a magazine, a book... nothing
bry watches a movie with me
11 00 shower, this is awesome... i love hot water! i feel sad that i havent prayed for Brys work day in a few days, i pray for so many things... into the pjz
11 30 go feed sadie before i need to go to sleep, pray some more
12 15 back to bed
3 30 sadies stirring,feed sadie again, fall asleep in the rocker
4 45 back to bed getting so happy thinking that i will get to wake up next to Bry at 8 and will have actually gotten a pretty good amount of consecutive sleep, my neck is hurting so bad, wonder what thats about then all of a sudden it seams
6 15 aaa-cho, hey mom
Kehnley baby it's way to early to be up, we need to go back to bed
hop in bed, oh wait, your bottoms are wet, change clothes, hop in bed, momma sleep with me, kehnley mommy misses her bed she REALLY wants to be in her bed, here mom, heres some covers for you, okay close your eyes, there you go
7 15 babies crying, passie in the mouth
me: I think I need to write down what has just happened in the past 24 hrs for my own sanity
7 53 babies awake, its okay sadie mommys coming